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| Friday, June 12, 2009 |
| - After 10 years... |
BUHAY PA BA? LOL.
So fudge-ing BUSY.
Summer on-the-job traning
School Paper layouting
Thesis study
Church
But, I'm so glad of what's happening. Really :D Very productive ha.
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| Tuesday, April 07, 2009 |
| - YEAH! |
Looks like I'm really going to enjoy this summer ha?
COOL!
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| Guess what? I kissed your boyfriend @ 3:51 PM |
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| Sunday, March 22, 2009 |
| - Dreams |
Ever felt like you just want to fast forward everything? That you are wondering how good it feels to finally reach the things you have been dreaming of. Buying travel magazines, staring at the photos, imagining myself in there and reading different kinds of stories from the travelers while listening to slow rock music – that’s what I do. How loser can I be? But, these simple things comfort me always. Always. Also, photography has been my leaning friend whenever this feeling strikes me. That’s one reason why I am in love with it. It just never fails to capture the heaven-like sceneries and it depends on your hand to add some magic on it.
It is a combination of warmth and guilt. Yes, I love the happiness of imaging myself somewhere else but knowing that you need get through things first to get there just saddens me. If only I have the money.. if only I am old enough.. if only. But, I have to wait – I know. This is one of the major reasons why I work hard. This desire wakes me from not just living in the present but also, continues from looking forward to where the future leads me.
Honestly, I want to know the feeling of fresh air breezing down your skin and hugging you as if it does not want to let go. I want to meet different people from different races and hear their stories about their life. I want to run down the hill and fall while laughing with all my heart. I want play in the rain, barefoot. I want the sun rays hit my eyes and not use sunglasses just to let my eyes see. I want to wake up in the morning and notice that I am not lying at my same old bed. I want to be on the highest place and look at the flickering street lights. I want to go a public bar where everybody in it enjoys as if they all know each other well. I want to stare at the night sky where stars are too much that they could not fit already. I want to sing at the top of my lungs while dancing all my heart out, together with the people I love. I want to spend all my free time walking down the small streets with a cup of coffee on my hand and observing the people I see. I want to wake up in the middle of the night, go the nearest lake or river and think. I want to visit all the antique shops and appreciate everything. I want to visit all the big and especially the small art galleries. I want go out, with no plans at all and just rely with whatever I can think of. I want to spend my sunset in an open restaurant near the sea and talking endlessly with someone. I want to taste all the kind of delicacies available. I want to learn how to cook them, too. I want to take a lot of gorgeous photos and people would appreciate them. I want to be slapped by a large wave from the sea and of course, I will survive. I want to be given an antique ring, that has a lot of stories in it, and that it is not that expensive. I want to be lost in a grass maze and find the way out all by myself. I want to write poems but not that many because I want each of them to be very special. I want my poems to be compiled but I do not expect it to be published. I want to visit all the old churches and monasteries in every country. I want to be a member of church choir and sing for God. I want to wake up lying under the tree and realize that I have been there since the morning I got there. I want to meet the person who had been part of life after years of complete no communication. I want to know and really understand what life is and for. I want to get married and have kids, later. I want to be back from a refreshing travel and be welcomed by my family in our place, called home. I want to find someone who can understand and relate to all these things.There is a lot more that I hope for, aside from these. I did not include things like wanting to have digital SLR camera, black/white laptop, house beside the sea or hill and so on because I am sure that I can get those things no matter what – they can be bought by money but not these things I listed. It is not bad to ask a lot, as long as you will do something about it. But you have to remember that it is not like mangoes that you have to wait to know when is the right time to pick it until some falls down. I learned from someone how life can be so precious – wasting a nick of time means a lot. That’s why, as soon as you can, you have to know what you want to do and your purpose in life really is.You know what, I want to forget this blog entry completely and read somewhere after many many years. And, hopefully, after reading this entry again, I will be able to reminisce and realize how I manage to do all these things I wrote and a lot more. I hope, hehe.
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| Guess what? I kissed your boyfriend @ 4:19 PM |
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| Saturday, March 21, 2009 |
| - IN 2010... WHAT IF? |
Promise me that you'll watch this..
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| Guess what? I kissed your boyfriend @ 6:08 PM |
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| Wednesday, March 18, 2009 |
| - Taboo Love |
"It all started when this guilt came upon me. I wasn't expecting that thing could happen, especially to me.. who's been crazy as a fan girl when it comes to handsome guys. A feeling that I never thought existed. The real happiness, I was looking for, was just right in front of me for three years. Though everything seems to be so wrong, as long I'm happy, I couldn't ask for more. Pat caught my burden and helped me realized how beautiful life really is. But, I couldn't stop from holding back.. too scared to ruin the friendship we've been building for so long. Will I tell her the truth? Or will I just keep my whole-hearted love for her? It's very confusing but whenever I'm with her, I never felt so contented in my life. Maybe, I'll just love her this way.. Still, I couldn't stop from wondering if she loves me too.." - Joan
"As I woke up, I knew this day was going to be special. Something different inside me was occuring. I didn't know exactly what was causing it or how it all came to be in the first place. But deep inside, it felt so wrong...yet so right. A mental image was stuck in my head the whole day - an image of a girl. A girl who has been close to me for three whole years. Her name is Joan. I've been thinking about her a lot lately and I couldn't figure out why at first. Whenever I'm with her, I feel butterflies in my stomach. Her voice is like music to my ears. But something deep inside was telling me that it was wrong. I'm a girl... and she's a girl too. How could this be? I never thought of myself as someone who would fall in love with someone of the same sex. I've always liked boys ever since. But now a sudden change has happened. She changed my life. And now I'm not ashamed to tell everyone... yes... I'm in love with a girl. I wonder if she loves me too?" - Pat
Langya. Tama na nga! Hahahahahahaha!
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| Guess what? I kissed your boyfriend @ 11:19 AM |
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| Monday, March 16, 2009 |
| - Nature |
I miss the nature.
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| Guess what? I kissed your boyfriend @ 9:06 PM |
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| Saturday, March 14, 2009 |
| - Fly Away, Baby (Revised) |
Fuck those rumors.
Sabi na eh.. here we go again.
I'm sorry. I won't entertain any stories again.
I've made up my mind.. And this time, its final.
"..may you shine like all the other angels we all see as stars."
-Mr. DR (031209)
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| Guess what? I kissed your boyfriend @ 8:39 PM |
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| Sunday, March 08, 2009 |
| - Old Joan? |
"Just be you.. just be Joana"
That couldn't stop ringing inside my head. I know.. I've changed a lot. Some say it's for good, but it isn't just me - the old me. Anyway, who doesn't change? It's normal..
♥
I was talking to my nieces a while ago. I never thought how I missed them. Knowing that they'll be leaving 2 weeks from now (They are going to back to America, and it will take them years again to come back.), I left my room and the stuff that I should be finishing.
After eating dinner with them, We stayed outside, took a long chair, and told a looooooooooooooooot of kiddie stories. Haha. I love talking to them. Funny kasi, you can talk to them in Tagalog and they'll answer you in a straight Tagalog! Very impressive. They just stayed here for almost 10 months ah.
Haaaay~ I'll miss them talaga :(
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| Guess what? I kissed your boyfriend @ 11:54 PM |
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| Tuesday, February 24, 2009 |
| - Malaki na ba? |
GRABE, napapabayaan ko na 'tong blogger ko.
Many wonderful things happened since the last time I posted an entry here. And I really wonder if there's still people who waste their time checking this soon-to-be abandoned blog site.
 That's the photo taken last February 05, 2009 (Thursday) at the retreat house in Tagaytay. We had an overnight retreat and it was all-out fun. We fixed all the things that should've been months back and here's the proof, hehe.
Since that retreat, I've received wonderful gifts from God - and it's what I was really asking for. But sadly, I have to give up 1 greatest gift I got from him 5 months ago. I tried to hold it tight so that it won't leg go, but it looks like God thinks I've had enough for now and it's for my own good. Yes, it won't be away for that long.. and yes, it sure will come back.. but i still couldn't help myself from feeling unhappy about it. Why am I not contented?
 Anyway.. like the usual thing I do with my friends - kapag bored, camera invasion. That's me and Pat.
 This portrait was a while ago at our Photolab. Gatch, Carmie and I had out photoshoots done for out thesis thing. I can't post the rest yet, so yan na lang muna.
♥
Ano?Malaki na ba?
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| Guess what? I kissed your boyfriend @ 11:10 PM |
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| Thursday, December 25, 2008 |
| - Christmas Post |
Today is the one of the most special days in our life. And we celebrate it together with our family and even to people who we treat as family. I've always loved Christmas. Not just because of the gifts waiting for us under the Christmas tree, but because of the time that you're going to spend with everybody. I just want to greet everyone a Merry Christmas! :)
Wow. 2 months of not posting anything here? That's a record. I was once a loser (okay, some might think I still am. Whatever, Haha) - I try to post an entry as much as possible. But, now, though I have all the chance to do so, I never did until now. I'm not even sure if my past readers are still visiting this site. But, just to make sure, here's an entry. And expect this to be really long.
A month ago, I've heard that there's these 2 YOUNG GIRLS who's been reading every post I make. I knew them personally. Why am I mentioning them? Well, I thought that since I've always had their attention, why don't I make some shout outs for them? Haha. Nah.
Many people have been asking me the same question - 'Where were you?' I haven't posted that much thingies in any of my sites lately. And I always answer them with - 'I started to discover what real life means.' That's true. Thanks to Kim.
Speaking of Kim.. my you-know-what, Haha. Read here. We'll be on our 4th month this coming January 5, 2008. Isn't that nice? We're growing stronger. Haaay, You guys don't have an idea how much I miss him. It's been a week now since we last saw each other - thanks to Christmas break. If only he's not from Marikina and I'm not from Makati. There were so many things to share that I don't know where to start. I'm having a blast these past few months. The consequence though is the total loss of money, Haha. But, it's better. No money could replace the happiness. I'm surrounded by wonderful people, which I'm really thankful for. Especially these three:
Patty, Pat & Vicky. Oh God, I love them. They're the kind of friend who you would really look for.
Though this Christmas is the least parties that I attended, I think that this Christmas and year that is the best and fulfilling of all. The best year, I have to say. I've grown beyond to what I expected. (Yes, I'm mixing my New Year's post here, just in case I get lazy again). I discovered a lot of things that I never thought existed? Haha, Kidding. I discovered a lot of things that I never thought I would. I broke a lot of my 'unusual beliefs'. And a lot more. And I hope to learn more for the next years of my life..
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| Guess what? I kissed your boyfriend @ 10:42 AM |
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